Nervous...

Wow its Dec. 28th the first date we were given about Baby Girl "Muffin" no sign of her yet!! So many different feelings, thoughts, emotions are going on its pretty crazy!! Among it all.....I can't explain how blessed Im feeling..we'll let me correct how BLESSED WE BOTH are feeling. For one to have such a UNCONDITIONAL LOVING and MINDFUL Father in Heaven to bless us with this opportunity to be parents to this lil momma...and of course how blessed we are to have loving siblings like Paseni & his beautiful wifey Ita to give so freely one of there blessings to bless us!! Gosh the due date for her seemed so far away and now its HERE.. yea we do have till now and Jan 3rd but its the waiting making me....N E R V O U S!! I could go on and on about the things that I think about...the feelings I'm feeling....the excitement in my heart...so much and so hard to put down into words. I think one of the cutest things is the asking from my Dad every morning it seems. G-Pa says he's ready for a lil granddaughter his lil grandsons are too much lol. I think the BEST though is my husband....I know he's really excited yet really nervous he knows with the baby comes a lot of expectations for him let alone my expectations..its now another lil lady that's going to rely on him!!

I've been meaning to blog about this but never got around to it but I think now will be a good time since i'm logged and blogging dur...lol!! So last week Tues. me & Jayy flew out to Long Beach to take my Aunty Pou and it was so much fun...we stayed over night and flew back Weds morning. That whole trip we were like lil kids roaming the foreign streets on Pacific Ocean Ave. by our Hotel visiting random stores..even stopped at a hole in the wall bar to watch the BYU game yea...poor people were probably wondering what we were doing!! Anyhow when we flew back i came straight into work. When i got in my sup asked how i was doing and if i was excited cause "Baby Girl" was coming soon, and we got to talking about everything the changes and so on, and during the chit chat she told me to read this blog of another co-worker and when I read it to remember how blessed i am even when it gets to those sleepless nights or stinky diapers just to remember what a BLESSING she is going to be...so I pulled up the blog and started reading away.....BOY....if ONLY I had boxes and boxes of Kleenexes i would've buried myself in them!! Her name is Kendra and her blog is http://www.kendraandryanwebster.blogspot.com/. When we touched down in SLC we made up our minds to give our lil "Baby Girl" a nickname "Moomoo" from her Dad I love it, but after reading this blog and feeling just a bit of how great this women Kendra is and with the nickname(among plenty of other ones) she gave her beautiful daughter Mckenzie which was "Muffin". I ONLY HOPE & PRAY that I will be a mother like her...FULL of EVERYTHING always STRIVING to be the BEST the MOTHER that she could be for her daughter the 4months she was here. I hope our daughter is as PERFECT as Mckenzie and Im sure she will be.!! But since reading that blog and the timing of everything (which me & Jayy and Im sure as everybody lives by) "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" so her nickname will be "MUFFIN" to help us remember how BLESSED we are to have her...and especially to remind us to EMBRACE the sleepless nights, the crying, the vomiting, the dirty diapers, the $$$ being spent on her, the exercise in packing & unpacking her bags, doctor appointments, teething time, potty training and of course that only for the first few months and years and then from there EMBRACE pretty much all that I probably put my parents through as a girl....now its my turn!! Thank you Crystal (my sup) for referring me to that blog and THANK you to the Webster family especially Kendra for being such a great example of EVERY KIND and a very special thanks to Baby Mckenzie "Muffin" you were to good for this world, and your little time here has changed so many peoples lives including mine and of course my daughter as she grows she will know why we decided to call her "Muffin" to be as special as you are!!